I had my fourth baby, a beautiful boy named Danny, in May of 2012.  In just the couple years previous I had gotten my first taste of meeting a goal with exercise- I stuck with a training program and ran a half-marathon in 2010.  It took me almost 2 1/2 hours, but I did it!  And it was very fulfilling to have finally stuck with something.  But, once again, I lapsed on the exercise front and gained a ton of weight during my fourth pregnancy- hitting my highest weight ever.


During the summer of 2012 I visited a friend and she told me about Insanity.  I had never heard of it before, but I was intrigued.  When I went home that day I watched an infomercial online and texted my friend something along the lines of …”that looks amazing.  But I don’t think I could ever do that.”  I watched those people doing the workout and really believed in my heart that was something I could/would never do…

By the end of the summer I was down to my pre-pregnancy weight, but that weight was still pretty high!  I felt heavy and bloated, weighed down by my own body.  I watched so many people around me exercising- going for runs or bike rides, playing basketball, just being active.  And I felt bad about myself- wondered why nothing ever stuck for me, ever worked for me.  Wondered what was wrong that I just couldn’t keep with it.  I had never found something I loved or thrived at on my own.  Nothing had ever “clicked” for me…

Running had been ok, but progress was slow and I didn’t really see any results.  When I was running I was proud of myself for sticking with it, happy that I found some pleasure in it, and fulfilled by meeting a goal.  But I didn’t really look or feel much more “in shape” than I had at the start and I was still pretty slow.  Plus, I wavered in my commitment.

That summer I knew I was probably not going to have another baby, that my body would really be my own again.  I wanted to finally take charge of it, get healthy and fit and feel good about myself.

My 37th birthday was that September and I ordered Insanity for myself.  It was a splurge- money is a little tight around here with me being at home with the kids for so long.  But I bought it as a present for myself, and I tracked it’s shipping each day.  Maybe that’s part of the reason it became my click, the investment and the anticipation.


Insanity came in the mail and I started right away.  The first week was definitely insane!  I almost threw up during one of the first workouts and I have never sweat like that in my life.  But I stuck with it…there were times I cried during and/or after.  It was really intense.  I didn’t miss a workout.  I stuck with it like I had never stuck with anything before.  I worked out at night back then, after all four kids were in bed but before Danny would wake up to be nursed!


And the results were insane, too.  I lost 25 pounds doing Insanity, and changed my body.  That Thanksgiving I saw friends I hadn’t seen since the summer and they couldn’t believe the change.  It felt good to get such amazing results so quickly- it was gratifying and motivating.  It also felt good to notice physical gains; the progress was evident one week to the next.  By the end of the whole program I was not only lighter and thinner, but I was more flexible and stronger.  I could do things that I hadn’t been able to do at the start.  The first time I went for a run after completing Insanity, I ran my fastest three miles ever- easily!  I hadn’t run in months, but the conditioning I got from Insanity meant more than all those months I had put into running when it was all I did.

And I love Shaun T.  I loved him then, and I love him even more now.  I liked the bootcamp style of Insanity; I don’t really like dance-y kinds of workouts.  I liked the intense intervals and the breaks in between.  I also liked seeing the people in the video, watching them struggle but get it done.  Something about the whole thing worked for me.


Insanity was the beginning.  I have not stopped exercising since.  I…love to exercise!  I eat so much better now, too.  I feel better than ever and happier than ever.  I used to make excuses about not exercising because it was unfair to my children, it took away from their time.  I could not have been more wrong- it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done for them!  It’s made me a better mother.  And at this point in my life, everything comes back to my children.  So this part means a lot.

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